I think Nia Kyame Avery

Became Marley Avery to let go of a harsh past. I was so busy pleasing others, I let myself go, and literally lost myself. I had no idea who I was or what I was doing. I didn't know Nia anymore, I had changed her around so much she had begun to deteriorate.

It wasn't until last year that I realized I had to grab a hold of myself and get shit right. I am working on becoming a better person and a stronger friend. Hopefully in the long run all of this will pay off and I will find real love. I only do this because in the back of my head I am patiently waiting for me to better myself so I can be with "Mr. Right" and be his "Mrs. Right".

I always looked at life like, if you don't like something change it. Eff it! It's your life, if shit isn't going the way you want then your obviously doing something wrong.

I really just want to be perfect. I have come to realize that no one is though. And no matter how hard you try to be perfect, it will never be reached.

So I will settle with being ME. Whoever that may be now.

Like the great Juno said,

"I don't know what kind of girl I am"

I suppose that is what all the bullshit is for ... for you to 'find' yourself and develop into a beautiful and wonderful person ... for you to eventually be happy.

I hope the name change was worth it ...