TAKE THE B0X - AMY WINEH0USE

Your neighbours were screaming
I don't have a key for downstairs, so I punched all the buzzers hoping he would be there
And now my head's hurting
You say I always get my own way
But you were in the shower when I got there, and I don' wanted to stay, but I got nothing to say

You were so beautiful before today
And then I heard what you say…man that was ugly

The Moschino bra you bought me last Christmas
Put it in the box, put it in the box
Frank's in there and I don't care
Put it in the box, put it in the box
Just take it
Take the box

Take the box

I came home this evening and nothing felt like how it should be
I feel like writing you a letter but that is not me…you know me
Feel so fucking angry; don't wanna be reminded of you
But when I left my sh*t in your kitchen, I said goodbye to your bedroom and smiled at you

Mr False Pretence, you don't make sense
I just don't know you
But you make me cry, where's my kiss goodbye?
I think I love you

The Moschino bra you bought me last Christmas
Put it in the box, put it in the box
Frank's in there and I don't care
Put it in the box, put it in the box
Now take it
Take the box
Just take it, take it
Take the box
And now just take the box
Take the box

Take the box

A S0LAR S0UL!!

You have come out with Solar for your soul type. A solar person is very unique. Also very potent. A little goes a long way. A person persuaded by solar power is very outgoing with many acquaintances but few very good friends. When a Solar person finds true friendship it is for life. A common goal amongst the Solar community is to bring knowledge and justice into the world around them. They must, though, remain objective(from a distance) in order to carry this out with precision and success. A solar person needs to feel loved and has a very strong sense of family loyalty and devotion. For a person of this nature, a broken or dysfunctional environment growing up can be particularly difficult to overcome later in life. However difficult or not a Solar persons life is, they are gifted with a sense of knowing that 'the sun will come up tomorrow' and that is why as a solar being, the best thing to do is put that gift to work in helping others to realize it is true. However not in a telling them how it is way, rather in a showing them silently, how it is done. Come on, shed some of your cosmic light Solar soul!

FUCK C0LLEGE HILL

Short and sweet .... Fuck College Hill and everything that it stands for.

Degrading to the black race? Yes

Encouraging Ignorance? Yes

Exemplifying a lack of self control? Yes

Black Entertainment Television has gone too far. I never really watched College Hill like that before. But I'll be damned if I begin to.

Fuck the 'FAG' on College Hill
[Even though I despise the word the situation caused me to come out of character]

I am beyond upset right now

I love the gay community, but despite ones sexuality it is still wrong to purposefully cause harm to someone.

Then on top of that .... Menace II Society just came on
Fucking classic
But unfortunately
Its fucking depressing

*Marley

BABA SAYS C00L F0R TH0UGHT

CHECK Y0UR INGREDIENTS BEF0RE Y0U 0VERD0SE 0N THE C00L .....

Baba Says Cool For Thought - Lupe Fiasco

IN THE END ....

N0 LABEL
N0 ADJECTIVE
N0 TITLE


CAN DEFINE WH0 I AM

0R WHAT I WILL GR0W T0 BE

I HAVE W0RKED T0 HARD T0 BE A BETTER PERS0N

T0 BE LIMITED

BY A W0RD,

A PHRASE,

0R A

NAME

I AM MY 0WN PERS0N

WITH MY 0WN TH0UGHTS, BELIEFS, AND VIRTUES.

IF ANYTHING ... I AM A LITTLE BIT 0F EVERYTHING

AND THAT'S S0METHING I CAN LIVE WITH ...

WHY D0 I FEEL S0 AL0NE

like everybody passing on the street
is doing too much, or trying too hard to be real.

We live our life like somebody's judgment is going to make or break us.
We act like it really matters what others think of us.

We talk a certain way, or dress in a certain manner so others will look up to us or think highly of us.
What amazes me the most, is that all the things were worried about people judging us about is physical...

Physical things that hold no weight in the entire aspect of 'life'.
Life is so much more deeper than blazers and ray bans.
It's funny that we have to see somebody's 'dopeness' to realize that it's there.

The heart and soul of people don't even count any more.
An educated conversation is no longer encouraged, neither is the avocation of self esteem.

In the end, we put all of this work and drive into our lives to please some one else, usually that some one else being who we think we are.

AND THIS 0NES F0R Y0U ...

Dear ________ ,

I've been fine, thanks for asking. I am glad that you are maintaining and attempting to be optimistic about your situation. Everything happens for a reason and I honestly think that this situation happened to avoid something even worse. Let go and let God! Put this all behind you and move on to a more positive note. You have so much going for you, you always had a head on your shoulders ... literally your head is huge! [L0L] On a more figurative note lol you are a genius and even though you have made some mistakes that have and will effect your life, it could have been much worst. I love you dearly, even though at times I wished I didn't. You still have a bright future ahead of you. The world still remains yours for the taking, I can only hope and pray that you use it to your advantage and make a positive change. There is so much more to life than the streets. I never quite understood why you seemed to live life like there wasn't, but there is. There was a time when everything you did was perfect to me. Even the shit that obviously was wrong. Now I see with a much clearer vision, and I hope that you do too.
It took me a while to write you back. Not really, probably like 3 or 4 hours. The longest 3 or 4 hours of my life. I thought of a million and one reasons why I shouldn't and a million why I should. I apologize but I am still going through this "letting go" phase. My love for you still remains and that alone was enough for me to reply. I also thought of Jasmin and Charlene writing you and I didn't want my letter to be read along with theirs. Childish right? Fuck yes lol. I try not to be though but I'm a brat and I often forget that it's not always my way or the highway. Any ways ... I came to the conclusion that I could give a fuck less about other bitches writing you or how bad you hurt me in the past. I told myself when the incident happened that I would be here for you regardless and I refuse to go back on my word. Keep your head up, I love you.

P.S.
The Cavs own the playoffs this year!!!!! Lebron is shutting shit down!!!!! Cavs are 4-0, they haven't lost a game yet!!!!!!

Always and Forever
Kyame

Learn from yesterday, live for today, and hope for tomorrow

WHEN ALL ELSE FAILS ...

WRITE Y0UR LITTLE HEART 0UT ... UNF0RTUNATELY, MY S0UL IS TIRED AND MY MIND IS RACING AND N0THING WILL C0ME 0UT. 0NLY EM0TI0N I AM CURRENTLY CAPABLE 0F SH0WING IS DISINTEREST ... N0T T0 ANY0NE IN PARTICULAR ... BUT EVERYTHING IN GENERAL.

I KN0W WHAT I HAVE T0 D0

BUT I FEEL INCAPABLE 0F D0ING IT

THERE IS S0METHING WR0NG WITH ME INDEED. I CAN'T SEEM T0 BE MYSELF ANYM0RE. I AM PLAGUED BY UNCERTAINTY, W0RRY, AND DISC0MF0RT.

ANY 0NE WH0 KN0WS ME WELL KN0WS THAT I AM DEEPER THAN WHAT IS SEEN 0N THE SURFACE. THERE IS MUCH M0RE T0 ME THAN WHAT MEETS THE EYE. AND 0NE SINGLE PERS0N 0R THING IS N0T THE WH0LE F0CUS 0F MY LIFE.

-SIGH-

I AM TIRED 0F IT ALL. BUT I HAVE T00 MUCH PRIDE T0 THR0W THE T0WEL IN.

I WISH

THAT I WERE Y0U ....

S0 W0NDERFULLY PUT T0GETHER

S0 W0NDERFULLY MADE

Y0U SEEM S0 PERFECT

MY FLAWS ARE UNRULY

AND SECRETLY

I WISH I WAS Y0U ....

L0UIS VUITT0N S/S 2009 SUNGLASSES

C0RALIE ACH0UCH ILLUSTRATI0NS

SAN EYEWEAR 2009

STEVE SHAW PH0T0S F0R KANYE WEST LV SH0ES

I W0ULD NEVER HAVE IMAGINED

That I would fall again. But like Beyonce say's "I thought I'd never fall again//But thins don't even feel like falling...

Cheesey ... yes, but very true!
I feel like I've been through way too much for a 19 year old girl. My heart has been broken far too many times, and my emotions become so confusing I often face my breaking point. Life proves to be harder than they said it would be. Just when you think you know what you're doing shit gets hectic and you're thrown off of track once again.

0ne thing I have learned in this hectic ass life is that love has no limits. Love is strong and it will make it through anything. Love, when used properly, can be the most beautiful thing. I guess the saying 'Love is Pain' is truer than we really thought. For all the hurt that love can cause, it gives back the same. Love can be just as beautiful as it is ugly. I guess you just let go and move on.

I don't want to be the girl that's so caught up in 'the ex' that she misses out on true love. I don't want to miss out on a good guy, with a good heart.

Life is short. But whether were friends or lovers, I want to spend it with you. You are wonderful, and this I can't deny. I didn't know guys like you existed. Y0U give me hope to make it through another day. And even though Im not supposed to say it ... I love you ...



***MARLEY***

0NCE AGAIN

ITS BACK T0 ME AND THESE RIDICUL0US EM0TI0NS
THIS IS THE HARDEST LIFE HAS EVER BEEN F0R ME
AND IM TIRED 0F ACTING AS IF ITS ALL PEACHY KEEN
THERE ARE FACT0RS IN MY LIFE THAT MAKE ME THE
HAPPIEST I HAVE EVER BEEN.
BUT THERE ARE THINGS THAT I AM STUCK T0 DEAL WITH
0N MY 0WN AND I AM AFRAID THAT I MAY N0T BE ABLE T0
IM JUST TIRED 0F HAVING T0 DEAL
IM TIRED 0F HAVING T0 FIGURE SHIT 0UT
I JUST WISH IT WAS EASIER BUT IT CANT BE
IM AT THIS P0INT WHERE I JUST WANT T0 BE STR0NG
BUT IVE ALREADY FUCKED AL0T 0F SHIT UP
AND THE BAD PART AB0UT IT IS THAT ITS MY LIFE
IM AFRAID THAT IF I C0NTINUE T0 KEEP FUCKING IT UP
THEN ITS G0NNA GET T0 THE P0INT THAT THERE WILL BE
N0THING LEFT T0 FUCK UP.

UGH
I HATE THESE DAYS!!

AHEM ,,,,

T0 BE



0R N0T T0 BE



THAT IS THE QUESTI0N INDEED



....

THIS 0NES F0R MARLEY ..... THE PRETTIEST GIRL HE'S EVER SEEN

Marlee - The 3rd

I JUST CAN'T SEEM T0 BE ME ....

Honestly. I love my crazy ass family, although since I was a child the pressure has been on to achieve to what it is they expect from me. It's a constant battle to figure out who the fuck I am and make them happy at the same time.

And in all actuality, I'm not the type to 'sacrifice' myself. And I remember making the decision around the age of 15 that in the end it would be 'me myself and I' because I feel that if I don't do everything they want, the way they want it done, then I will destined to tough it all out on my own. A thought that doesn't easily settle on the stomach because the job of a family is to have your back whenever.

Me being who I am wants to say fuck em I do what I want when I want and that's that.

But anyone who knows me knows that I am a softee on the inside and all I really have ever wanted to do was to put a smile on peoples faces.

It's times like these that I wish daddy was still here. He had been through almost any and everything in his life and not only would he understand but he would give perfect advice.

The fact of the matter is that college is not for me right now. I have coem to this conclusion after extensive thought. I have also decided to not force myself to do anything that I feel is not for me. 'My Plan' is to go to TCC next semester, work part time, and build myself up as a responsible person.

Believe it or not Im quite irresponsible and my version of living for today may not meet the overall standard of living.

It's times like these that I wish life was easier. But who doesn't like a good challenge?

I want it all, and to achieve that, I'm going to have to start now to make that happen.

No more going with the flow of "Marley" its time to step up and take charge.

The only hard part now is not listening to my heart, but following it with my head held high ....

Life is but a dream to me, I dont wanna wake up.

Im totally freaked out by how things change, and how quickly they do. It was just months ago that he and I were together, I wasn't happy, but I was in love....deep, deep in love. Then he stormed out of my life as quickly as he arrived and I was left to face the world alone. Then shit got hectic. Friends came and left, and love did the same.

Damn. So much shit has happened to me in the last couple of months. I am surprised that I am still standing. The only depressing part to it is that I don't know where to go next or what to do. My heart yearns for something that my mind won't allow. I can't let myself go through heartbreak again, and from the way it looks, nothing last forever and we are all destined for an end. I guess you just have to go out on top. Unfortunately this is a concept that I have yet to grasp.

All the gushy shit sounds good to my ears, but I can't expect to be happy with someone else if I am not already happy with Nia.

Time keeps going by, sometimes slowly and at times quickly.
I feel like time is sweeping past me.
And I am running out of it faster than i expected.

AND EVERY TIME I FELT THAT WAS THAT....

THIS IS WHAT IT FEELS LIKE....

When you are loved ....

-SIGH-

It's so relaxing, almost invigorating. I feel good about myself. Can't say everything is going as planned, but I'm somewhat satisfied.

I think about him in the morning.
I think about him during the day.
I think about him at night.

I can't stop thinking about him.

He gives me something to look forward too ya know....
Like a future....

I love him

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